I get to spent more time with my dad working on it! :)
Q: I’m so proud of you, which I’m sure you already know. You spoke to me a few months ago about quitting, just to see if you could do it. So reading about your decision and progress makes me so happy that you’re following through. Visit soon there, stranger.
A: I miss you, alot. I’m making progress, but very slowly… I’ve never felt this dependent on anything in my life… (besides my family). It sucks! I wlll visit soon! Hopefully after my car get’s a check up. Hope all is well :)Q: Yeah it will be hard, nothing’s easy in life. “old habits die hard” man, but if you really wanted to do something lets say quitting smoking, then you can quit it all just like that, IF you REALLY wanted to.
A: I do really want to… but a part of me doesn’t. I’m not going to lie, I really do enjoy smoking.. but I’ve decided the cons of smoking have outweighed the pros, and that my life would probably be better WITHOUT cigarettes. So now I am taking my first steps to quitting. I have said it before, but I really mean it this time.
Q: let’s kick it at tapoica express one time?
A: You already know, leave the name and number!Q: You have the nicest dick I’ve ever seen
A: Lol, why, thank you.Q: im boughta go thriller mike jackson on these niggas.
A: Do it.
Leave me anything… even let me know if you’re gonna go thriller on niggas.
Fucking day 2 of me trying to quit smoking… I had class from 8AM to 8PM today… I felt like shit… I had my first stoge around 12pm and got mad at myself and took the rest of the stoges in my pack and broke them in half and threw them on the floor… lol. Felt pretty good, but then 2 hours later I started craving for a stoge… and I realized I didn’t have any.. LOL.. I felt hella stupid. What’s worst was I ended up asking someone for one.
I had 4 stoges today… I think I should just really STOP all together.. because after that first one I started hella craving more, and I couldn’t even focus in class.. all I kept thinking about was having a stoge.
And if today couldn’t get any worst, my clutch on my car is having problems… had to fucking call my dad to help me get my car back running. I’m not even sure what’s wrong with my clutch right now, but it’s leaking fluids.
Hopefully tomorrow I’ll be able to go the whole day without any stoges…. I mean, I don’t have anymore to smoke…
Q: hey you know, if you really wanted to quit, you dont have to quit smoking slowly. Just quit it all.
A: It’s not that easy…. i’m giong to be realistic here… i’m gonna take it one step at a time. I think i’m making good progress if I cut down from 12 cigarettes a day to 3…. it’s hard to suddenly STOP something that has become a routine in my daily life.Q: Nigga, let’s make a bike/car video. I have Sony Vegas Pro 8 ($600 program) and I can do some alright editing. -Kevin
A: Haha I got that too, free99.
Leave me something, anything!
Today is my first day of trying to quit smoking. It was pretty rough going through the school day without stoges…I only had 3 stoges today…and i’m still hella craving, but I’m going to limit myself. 3 stoges a day, then i’m gonna cut it down to two, then one, then none. It sucks because I was at Tapioca today with my friends… and they were all smoking and shit hella trying to offer me one. I told them I was planning on quitting and they laughed. It’s like just because you guys said you were going to quit and never did, doesn’t mean i’m going to. Fuck, I know I can do this. I can do anything I set my mind to, it’s mind over matter. I’m going to break two bad habits, smoking, and being a hypocrite. I’m done with cigarettes. Peaaaaaace….
EDIT: Thanks all, glad some people actually have some faith in me. It’s nice to have people pulling you towards the light, and not away from it.
Q: Albert, i feel the same way you do man. It’s alright to be confused and what not, let your intuition guide you and don’t try to force yourself to be something you aren’t. do research and look into majors, i think that would help a lot. as far as being a broke ass..try finding a part time job that fits your schedule? do what you love, what interests you? what do you love? follow that voice inside your mind and don’t listen to all that self talk.
do what you want don’t let your decision be based on someone else’s approval. btw your pictures are tight, i read your blog everday, no homo, no stalker status either haha. hope my advice didn’t seem like i was telling you what to do, just my opinion, sorry if my wording was off. just sit with it i guess?
A: Wow, thanks for taking the time to read my rants and give me feedback… I really need it right now and I can’t believe you actually took time to find my formspring and leave me something. That means alot. Thanks.
I’m juggling back in forth with money and time.. I don’t want to waste my money (in loans that I have to pay back later) or my time.. I think I just need the summer off to take some time and free my mind and plan out what I really want.. right now everything is so fast paced.. (me being on a quarter system) I barely even have any time to breathe.
And on top of that… i’m not really happy right now… I don’t know why, but I’m not.
Yeah, I really want to make money doing what I love, and thats photography. I want to start doing more gigs like I used to.. but I havn’t really been out there promoting myself, and I think I should… its fun and it makes a bit of money for me to get by on.
I don’t find it stalker-ish at all that you read my blog. I would probably read yours too, post up the link man. Once again thanks for your advice… means alot.
For anyone who want’s to leave one.
Went Grocery Shopping with the sister today… I love grocery shopping! I wish I could just buy whatever… fuck pricetags! Lol. The only thing I really need to live is FROZEN PIZZA…fucking BOMB! Oh..and sour jelly beans are a runner up. All that food in the basket came out to be $50…my mom got mad we went $20 over the budget lol.. how does she tell me i’m too skinny and I need to eat more, but give me $30 for 2 weeks of groceries.. -_-
Bone stock 91’ 240sx… stay tuned for more.
who actually take time out of their day to see how my life is going. The thing’s I write/post I don’t really expect people to read. I write/post them for myself, but it’s amazing how some people actually care about what I have to say. And then there are some others who just pop in my blog, scroll through a few of my pictures and leave. That’s cool too, it’s nice that some people other than myself, enjoy my photographs. So I just wanted to write a blog, and thank everyone who has ever read one of my useless rants…my quotes that probably make no sense at all… and my weird pictures. I find it very ironic, that there are people online that i’ve met on tumblr… who care about what’s going on in my life more then my real friends that I hang out with do… something needs to change.
“It’s right next to James Logan High School, so expect this joint to be crowded with teenie-boppers in the after-school hours. I usually see the colorguard/winterguard/band auxillary/whatever you call those flag tossing girls there, and their entourage of horny little boys. Come nighttime, you’ll get the import crowd…. Obnoxiously loud exhausts and whistling blow-off valves, included at no extra charge. Luckily, there is no real beef amongst anyone. Inside, the ambience will always be a craps shoot. One time, it might be calm, chill, even quiet with the exception of the Mandarin pop music in the background. Another time, you might get high school kids being loud as hell playing cards, or showing off whose the hyphyest. Nonetheless, no two days are ever the same.”
That about sum’s it up….haha.
But recently I have been feeling really unmotivated. I’ve been having these crazy mood swings…some days would be alright…other days are just….i dont know. Other days are…. boring? … I guess same shit different day type of shit…. I know I should try and stay positive..but damn, sometimes I feel like there’s nothing to look forward to, to keep me staying positive. I am 3 weeks behind in homework….I have two test coming up, one on Monday and one on Wednesday…and for some reason I have no motivation at all to even try and study for them. I have no job, I am broke as fuck. I can barely afford to drive my fucking car or eat out with all my friends. I am resorting to selling all my old shit for money. I honestly don’t know what my purpose in life is right now…. my life just basically consist of Monday-Fridays… sleep wakeup eat school home eat sleep… and my Friday-Sundays are sleep wakeup do nothing with friends all day, then get wasted, then sleep, then wake up… then monday’s-friday, rinse and repeat.
Sometimes I just feel like I need a year off..to get my mind straight. I have no idea what the fuck I want to do anymore…. its like I want to do something that makes money…but I don’t want to do something I’m going to hate doing.. it’s like I don’t want to wake up in the morning everyday knowing that I have to go work at my shitty job for 8 hours. Everything I want to pursue… my mom hates , and everyone around me tells me I won’t make it doing that.
Sometimes I even think about joining the Marines… just to take the easy way out. But that’s not fun… and I want to be able to raise a family and stuff.. and plus, my mom would disown me if I left for the Marines…
I really need something or someone to help me light this fire under my ass to get me going…or at least someone who can sit and listen to me, and give me some real ass advice…because I am totally fucked up in my head right now.
lol….sometimes I wonder if I should have kept using my old nickname..
My old one failed on me…clicking of death…boo lost most of my files.. i was only able to recover some of my pictures.
This thing is a finger print magnet! Mad ups to John for the jooooog
Don’t post shit up like RIP Jun Seba or RIP Guru just because everyone else is doing it. We all know for sure you didn’t download their shit until you seen it on Facebook or other people’s Tumblrs. I laugh. Blog on.
Volunteer Experience… check.
Interests / Activities… check.
Kind of sad that I can’t really think of something that I achieved in…
People are so quick to judge about what you’re all about. I’ve heard it all before but the truth is, I’m probably one of the nicest people you’ll ever meet and all I do is laugh. Seriously, give people the chance to prove all your assumptions wrong.
about marijuana. Most of you are still in the “hype” phase. You do it because it looks “cool.” I dislike you. Grow up and realize what marijuana is all about.
Also, young kids should hop off weed. Fuck up your brain cells later on in life. You just waste weed in high school. You actually do quality shit when you’re in college with buddies.
And I doubt your young asses know even the slightest bit of politics behind marijuana. Stop fronting.
Just my opinion. Feel free to Unfollow.
Bro, don’t even say all that like you’re some hot shit. You’re ass is still in the “hype phase” , you didnt even start smoking till 2009 summer and now look at you. Wanna be ass pot head. Posting all these facebook updates about smoking… You’re the one that think’s its “cool” to smoke…. thats the reason you started in the first place.
“Grow up and realize what Marijuana is about” ……….???? Can YOU tell me what its about? It’s a fucking plant for fuck sake. Young kids should hop off weed? Your what? 18, 19? LOL don’t talk like your some mature ass grown up, you’re still a kid yourself.
You’re the only one frontin bro, I call em as I sees em. And don’t try and act all cool because you smoke weed and smoke cigarettes, your ass was fucking asking me for cigarettes back in Senior year. You’re ass didn’t even inhale the smoke… I laugh.
Don’t take it up the ass, go smoke another “joint” maybe it’ll make you feel better.
I wish my dream would of came true.
Stop wishing for your dreams and start reaching for them.
The furthest day from Friday. Surprisingly today wasn’t that bad. Here’s my day at schooooos.